drizzle my nizzle

DUUUUUUUUUUDE it's raining soooo fuggin much

6 days back-to-back

super cold temperatures

80 mph fast winds

20 ft. rip tides

hail

floods

tornadoes... IN LA.

day after tomorrow anyone? -_-

fuckin global warming

the human mind: drugs and dreams

you know, lately i've been having these weird mind exploration phases

i can't seem to stop thinking about heavy duty shit

when i'm lying in bed looking at the sky from my window, i try to wonder what's happening out there

i think.. no, i'm certain, that there's life out there. or there's something that just isn't able to be explained by the human mind

we can come up with theories and interpretations but never a definite answer

it's so amusing to find that we human beings are so intrigued by such superficialities when in truth we should be intrigued by the naturalities and complexities of life

(play this video while you're reading this. it matches so well)

this one night, i was blazed as fuck and sat on a beach at night

the star studded sky looked amazing.. i wish there wasn't as much light pollution in the sky in the city

but anyways, as i stared up into the sky, i literally felt like i was flying through space

no joke.

the ambient repetitive sounds of the ocean waves crashing into the sand put me into this trance, and somehow the twinkling stars seemed to move around'

once i snapped out of this trance, i began to ponder how drugs are able to affect our mind to cause it to perceive this alternate reality

then i thought, how is the mind created in the first place?

everything about our body has a physical state.... except our mind.

how is it that the most beautiful part of our body has no physical state to it?

how does the tangible brain affect the intangible mind?

as many of you may know, i was a complete straight edge last year. anti-drugs only because it caused my brother's flourishing life to take a complete swerve and negatively affect his and our lives. but one day, when the opportunity came, i figured i can't judge it if i've never tried it and smoked away

i'd say this day was the (or one of the) turning point of my life.

it definitely allowed my mind to be set free and my imagination wild. it was such a different experience. with that done, i truly felt like i felt the full spectrum of emotions. it opened my mind considerably and of course, as said by it's reputation, it unlocked my gateway to the drug world.

now, i only take drugs for philosophical and self-discovery reasons - not just to do it. those who do that are straight-up losers.

dreaming is one of my favorite things to do. nightmares especially interest me. everyday when i wake up, i try to see if i can remember what i dreamt, if not try to imagine what i had.

i like how it's totally random and literally just the imagination running wild.

honestly, i see dreaming as a portal for the mind to another dimension

recently, i had a dream that i was being chased and eventually killed

i scavenged throughout the internet and found that your dreams had underlying meanings and were able to be interpreted. turns out being killed meant that the dreamer was changing but unaware of this. if you were the one killing in your dream, that meant that you were aware of being changed.

holy shit, i spent a whole hour typing this shit!!

got some dreaming to do! if i remember, i'll definitely give it a write-out here

thanks for reading guys.. to be continued!

together as one

so, it's the end of the year, the end of the decade.

i can't even believe what happened these past 10 years. SO much. SOSOSOOS OSO much.

fuckin' phenomenal. best decade ever... yet.

just when you think nothing can get any better, it always does

gotta keep that optimistic mentality with you all the time

i've learned ALOT this decade, this year especially and i've matured sooo much to the point where i look back at myself from back in the days and ask "that was really me? what the efffff" hehe

i've met sooo many amazing people this year, you really have no idea

it's as if we're all puzzle pieces and i just happened to luckily come across the ones to complete the whole picture. still some missing pieces though, as always o'course!

elementary school, middle school, high school... the transitions between these eras of my childhood life was just fuckin incredible. elementary... was surely an interesting experience. i've had 7 playdates, wore hip-hop baggy clothes, and was the weirdest kid you would ever meet.

middle school was more of a hibernation/hermit crab phase for me. shy as fuck, antisocial, quiet, and was one of those kids that would hang out in the library since i didn't really have people to hang out with.

but here comes high school. where the shell cracked and i become this totally opposite dude that starts makin shit crackin. crazy ass foo, das all i can say ahahaha

so pretty much, i think it's safe to say.. i had a great run. best decade.. yet. i can't even imagine what the 10s are going to be like. the evolution of music, fashion, politics, friends, school, and life above all. it's interesting that fads usually have about a 10 year span to them. but anyhoo, all i can say is, i can't fuckin wait and i'm stoked to see whats to come. throw away what you don't need to make room for whatever comes next. i'm not going to make resolutions only because i know i won't live up to them, and that i found out its best to just keep life spontaneous. i didn't plan shit out these past few years and everything turned out to be bomb.com. so, the 00's was awesome, but BRING ON THE 10's BAEBAYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!

p.s. i got a zebra snuggie for xmas. what aboutchu? :)

HAPPY THANKSGIVIN

HAPPY THANKSGIVING/TURKEY GENOCIDE DAY YALLLLL

Soooo excited. Hopefully this time, I'll get a legit one.

Last year, I had KFC, french fries, and some strawberry jam AND had to finish up my UC apps, so there were barely any thanks going around

ghetttooo nonetheless vurry vurry yummy

ah! my mama just came in through the door with some groceries

GOTS TO GO

HAVE AN AWESOME THUNKSGIVIN EVERYONE

p.s. I have an electro blog. elektrosapien.blogspot.com

check it out!

THE END

Hey dawggsssss

Sooooo, I think I'm gonna stop with this personal blog and create a music blog, mainly focusing on electro, but maybe I'll throw in some indie and whatnot.

I'll keep you posted!

BB

I feel like I never get a break from drama.

Parents on the bridge of filing for divorce, failing grades, and now BB, the coolest cat ever.

We haven't really been paying much attention to her.. I've just been so busy with school and trying to ease the tension between my parents, ya know?

BB had a very bad case of the fleas. She was completely covered with them and I saw blood under her left ear. It was really bad. It was no wonder I didn't see her. She was in pain and she was just there under the bed sleeping in her own hammock the whole time (Yeah, she sleeps in a hammock on the sheets under my parent's mattress haha). She eventually came out, and because of her fleas, our home was infested. It was disgusting. We called the exterminator and they're coming on the 17th, but yeah. I guess my parents just couldn't handle the extra pressure. Their bedroom is completely fuddled with fleas.. She wakes up with tons of flea bites everyday. It's driving her even more over the edge.

I wanted to send BB to get her groomed and get some flea medicine applied on, but my parents just didn't want to spend extra bucks. They basically just threw her away as if she was trash.. But then again, if our circumstances were much better, I'm sure they would've done all they could to save her. It was just a bad time.

Anyways, they sent her to the animal shelter and left her there.. It wasn't easy to let them get my permission to let BB go, but considering our familial and financial situation, it was for the best.

I wonder if she's thinking about us right now... Anyways, I hope everything works out for her. I feel guilty for letting something that's done nothing but good for the family just be tossed away.

I miss you and your adventurous, crazy, self. I'm sure you'll find a better family soon.. Think of it as an adventure.

I will surely miss chasing you around, cleaning after your toilet paper confetti mess, catching you drinking from the toilet, scratching my door, watching you play with the fake mouse, and seeing you dash towards your bowl whenever I pour food.

Will never forget you

Love,

your best friend since birth. DBae

part of the weekend never dies

"what's a four letter word for the most legendary weekend ever? It ain't epic... it ain't sick... it's HARD. oh sheeeeeit" -bae

Ahh, the weekends. What will we do without 'em

This weekend was just.. pure legend. Every second is worth talking about. I can't even summarize what happened

Twas all a fmly reunion. I even got to see people I haven't seen since graduation!

Friday was awesome, but it started out blehh... Filled with drama llamas. A friend of mine got his and his friend's tickets snatched while in line. He ran after him and got into a fistfight, but his glasses fell off. He was blind without 'em, so that ass got away. On top of that, one of my friends lost her ticket on the way. J found a legit ticket on the floor while in line, but found out that the ticket he bought for $130 was counterfeit, so he took it instead. She had no choice but to stay behind and her boyfriend stayed with back at Randy's.

Fackin' shady people dude. Whatever happened to reppin' PLUR (Peace.Love.Unity.Respect)?

My favorite DJs that night in this order: 2ManyDJs, Bloody Beetroots, Deadmau5

2ManyDJs was just funfunfun. He covered all aspects of music including rock, hiphop, 90s elektro, and even some slow jams. Hah, my hero.

Bloody Beetroots.. all I can say is WOOP WOOP!

Deadmau5.. I guess I was just too hyped up for him. I mean c'mon, I listen to this dude's music everyday, he has such a massive following of fans, and his music is just ART. I was a little disappointed of how he was live. But ya know, he's young. In a few years, he'll hit the textbooks, yo. But yeah, even more disappointed that my perception was enhanced when he played (if ya know wha I mean heheh :] )

After that, AFTER PARTYIN' IT UP! I had some really dank 420.. Blueberry kush. One HUGE hit from a bong and I was GONE. Like, two levels above faded. If there is such a thing. Not even in a dimension. I felt like a dimension was being exploded to birth. Slow as fuck, and everyone was mufflin-talkin. Knocked out?

Saturday, woke up with a smile, went home, took a shower, and then it was back at Randy's. The group was much smaller since they were going to Monster Massive. Watched some Footloose (This movie is so 80s. AHA) while waiting and the budddddies finally came. Got there, and to my surprise, Deadmau5 was playing again! Ahoy! I was flubbergusted (spell?) and excited, cuz I could listen to him with perception-enhancing substances now! STOKED AS FUCK!

We all got in, did it, and went to go see who was playing. Major Lazer played and man, he's sooooo good. Diplo and Switch, what can go wrong? His set made me feel like I was in a rave in Jamaica. Oh man, one day that'll happen, but yeah. EPIC EPIC EPICKPKDSIJD! Everything was a blur afterwards (Hahaha). Lili and I were chillin' for a bit, and spontaneously found the weirdest/chillest place down the stairs of the Shrine. I think we went backstage or something. I dunno, but we weren't supposed to be there. We went down these stairs and found this dressing-roomish place. Mirrors and lights, sinks and dripping water. It was completely silent.. kinda hard to believe since there were 938395839 dancing&screaming people just a level right above us. We heard a little bit of the song through the pipes going through the ceiling.

We called that place the "White Room". Poetic, hah.

We went up and listened to Deadmau5. He was definitely better the second time. <3

I met lots of chill people, though there was this guy trippin' really bad on shrooms there..

Advice: Don't do shrooms at concerts/raves/places where there are a lot of people you don't know!

Again, everything was a blur. My favorites of that night in order: Basement Jaxx, Modeselektor, Deadmau5, Justice, Major Lazer. :))))))

AFTER PARTYIN' IT UP AGAIN cept this time was better. Hahahaha, not going into details.

This weekend was amazing, and I fuckin' can't wait for TAO (Together As One). For those of you reading, if you've never been to a rave/DJ concert before, you should! It's definitely an experience you should try once in yo life.

NEW YEARSSSSSS ahhhhhhh only two months..

Hard NYE vs TAO? Idk.. but it's for me, it's TAO for nao.