part 2: the human life

i'm not really the type of person that dwells in the past. i've come to learn and accept that what's done is done, and there's no point in cryin over something that you can't change

it's really interesting, though, to think of what your current situation could be like, if you haven't made the decisions you have and made the decisions you haven't

jeeeeeez, now isn't that some heavy shit? :U

it's trippy to think that the littlest of the details really did have significant values in your life.

that one scene from the film The Curious Case of Benjamin Button where it showed how the female protagonist could've not gotten injured really stuck out to me

if the man hadn't woken up 5 minutes late, she could've still been able to dance.

if the man hadn't missed the taxi, she could've still been able to dance.

etcetera, etcetera (interesting thought: the language's equivalent to mathematic's infinity is "etcetera"! FUCK my mind just got blown.)

the fundamentals of existentialism really sticks out to me, but my views are individual; they're my own thaaaang, ya know?

there are moments in my life (i.e. coincidences) where i just feel like there really are reasons why things happen

the answers to reasons why will always be different amongst individuals because that is exactly what we are: individuals with individualistic everything

i think the reason behind life is just to be happy, but honestly i don't really fuckin care either. some people will "waste" their whole life searching for the answer to life, but i feel like they need to just sit down and look what's in front of them. humans always complicate shit up which annoys me sometimes. why can't we indulge in simplicities for once?

brahhh, i'm so certain that there's other life beings out there. there has to be. wouldn't make sense if we're the only ones... but then again, what makes sense anymore?

every answer we find raises more and more questions. it's an infinite cycle, because the truth is, there is no one definition.

whoa, getting too deep! i was in some sort of trance or some shit writing that. O.O

anyways, it's definitely an interesting topic. i still have so many thoughts i wish i could solidify into words.

the possibilities are infinite.

when i look back in my life and cringe at all the stupid shit i've done, i've just come to accept that those moments have shaped me to become who i am today and helped me to experience the broad spectrum of emotions. i'm happy and satisfied, so i'm grateful for all the shit that's happened in my life. you just have to have that mentality. you can reach ultimate happiness when you come to a point where you can just accept and embrace everything. but then again, too much of anything is bad for you.

always in moderation.

fuck AJSHSAJDJKAHDJKAHFKASHF i need sleep lol

yeah, i'm totally nuts.

it's the brain chemicals talking. yikes-aroni

now i want macaroni

yeah, i'm psycho.

i'm gonna stop writing now.

okay.

good night.

stoked to see what dreams my brain has in stored for me! x)